July 29, 2010
July 28, 2010
Much googling later I have come up with the current list...here it goes:
Things for me:
- old night gown/t-shirt for during birth and after birth;
- robe for walking around the corridors;
- slippers (I think I will stick to my trusted Birkenstock -the only shoes I can fit into);
- pillow (not sure if I should take my beloved body pillow or just an ordinary pillow with coloured cover);
- panty liners;
- breastfeeding pads (which ones to get??);
ipod (not sure I will use it for music but I can listen to my meditation or at least try!);
- one outfit for when I leave the hospital;
- phone charger;
snacks and drinks.
Things for the birthing partner (aka D):
- comfy shoes and flip flops;
- change of clothes;
- camera and charger;
- phone charger;
- a watch with a second hand (might need to get one as D does not wear one!);
Things for Little Miss Peanut:
- outfits for two days;
- onesie for two days;
- one pram cellular blanket and a swaddle blanket;
- nail file (in case she is born with long nails);
- nappy cream (still researching that one!);
- Car seat and base (the hospital we will deliver at has a system in place whereby every child who delivers there gets a free car seat!)
What am I missing??? If you have any suggestions please let me know!!
July 27, 2010
Anyway, as I was saying on Sunday I separated whites, pales, brights, sheets/blankets and bath towels. I put them all in 4 separate bags ready for my big washing spree. Of course a process that could have taken me 10 minutes lasted about an hour as I stopped and was almost in tears whilst looking at all the different outfits we bought so far (D looked on thinking I have gone and lost my mind completely). Now you would think that washing clothes is not something that requires a lot of thought, you just put the clothes in, add the detergent, select your program turn the machine on and voila, your clothes are washing. Well it can be that simple but it’s not when it come to baby clothes. I started researching this a while back and after reading both American and British ways of doing things I decided I would sit somewhere in the middle and do things my way. I decided to use Ultra Purex Baby as the main detergent and then add ¼ of the normal tiny cup of Downy Free & Sensitive as the fabric softener. As all the clothes /sheets are brand new I wash them all on 30/40 degrees and after adding the softener I let the machine stop then run the washing cycle again just to make sure all the extra soap is gone out of the clothes. I suffer from allergies and always had sensitive skin so I fear Izzy might have the same reaction to harsher detergents. I read a lot about the use of fabric softener but the controversy is mainly about using it on those clothes that are flame retardant and most of the clothes I buy are not treated for this purpose, the only item I saw as being fire proof is her moses basket and its mattress and I don’t intend to wash that. I did however wash the lining of the basket as it smelled of wicker but I didn’t use fabric softener on this just to be sure even if there was no mention of this on the item.
So far I washed all the sheets, blankets and bath towels and last night I started ironing them. I did a lot of them and still have another wash load to do tonight. I have figured out a way whereby I can sit on the sofa and iron at the same time which does not hurt my feet and my back either. It was a bit of challenge ironing the moses basket’s fitted sheet… it was so tiny but I managed. I wonder if I will keep this up after she is born…I guess we shall wait and see. I normally don’t iron our sheets I just put them on and that’s it, they are going to get messy anyway so what’s the point but for Izzy it’s better that they are flat and pressed.
It’s a good thing I love washing and ironing and making everything neat and tidy or this would be such a chore.. I actually love putting in the items and then putting them on the line and when they are ready ironing them, it’s a really calming and peaceful process for me. D on the other hand hates washing and even dislikes touching wet clothes just out of the washing machine. He used to help me putting the clothes up to dry but after being told that he was not doing it the “right” way too many times he now just watches… I only have myself to blame for that one…LOL!
In other news, Izzy is moving like crazy these days. I started counting kicks and I think I am going to stop. There is no point as she moves so fast so quickly that she does 10 kicks in less than a minute now! My whole belly shakes and moves as well which is pretty amazing to watch and I can feel what I am guessing is her spine and her tushy against my belly. She moves equally as much during the day and the night, the main moves come mainly after food or if I drink cold water or orange juice. When I told D how much she is moving his reply was : “we are never going to sleep again!” We shall see…
July 26, 2010
Then at the end of August after we packed our house and as we were on our way to the UAE we planned two stops, the first in Italy to see my family and the second in Greece to visit D's. When my parents saw Dimitri they realised he was not well. They took me aside and told me they thought he had a severe thyroid condition. I looked at them blankly and they told me that my aunt had the same thing and that he needed immediate medical attention. When we got to Greece his aunt who also had it, organised for him to go get his blood tests done so that he could receive treatment once we got to Abu Dhabi.
The results showed a severe case of hyperthyroidism that if left untreated could have caused heart failure. We were shocked and relieved that finally we had a name for what was going on. We saw many doctors for his condition and D has been struggling with his thyroid since. Through my boss we were able to start seeing this amazing endocrinologist who from the first visit made us feel like we finally were in good hands. D's hyperthyroidism was so out of control that even the medication were not helping and almost 3 years ago he took a dose of radioactive iodine in the hope that it would help control the thyroid function without needing to do surgery and have his thyroid remove.
We felt it was the right approach and it has worked until now. His thyroid seemed to be doing ok and after many ups and downs the doctor was confident enough to tell him that if his latest lab tests came back looking good he would be considered as any other person. We just got the results and his thyroid has finally realised what happened and is now fighting to keep on responding but the doctor believes it is showing the signs of hypothyroidism. We knew going into the radioactive treatment that this could have been one of the outcomes but we were hoping it wouldn’t come to that. I keep telling D that millions of people live with hypo and that once you find the right combination of drugs you can live a normal life. I believe in his doctor and I have faith that waiting to see how things develop in the next couple of months before starting medication is the best course of action. I can also understand his frustration in that he would rather not have to take a pill for the rest of his life starting so young. I tell him to keep thinking positive and that with his new diet and his exercise routine he will be in a better shape come the next check up. If there is one thing I have learnt in the last 2 years is not to underestimate the power of your body.
In the meantime I am researching “living with hypothyroidism” so I know what to expect and can be of help and support to D. I am sure that as long as we are in this together there is nothing we cannot conquer.
July 25, 2010
July 22, 2010
July 21, 2010
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
July 20, 2010
July 15, 2010
Regardless of the fact that our wedding day was not what we had envisioned and planned it will stay in my memory as one of the best days of my life. Saying that I wanted him to be my husband through it all and promising to love and cherish his love forever felt like a brand new chapter of our life together. It's weird but in a way, and D knows this, I always felt like we were married to each other from when we got together. We made an unsaid promise to love and never hurt the other person and we stuck to that promise through the years.
D has been my soul mate and my best friend since the day we met back in October 2000. He was the first to say I love you and when he did it all I said was "YOU love ME?" I was in shock that someone as amazing as him could fall in love with someone like me. He swept me off my feet and has never let me down since. I know I am the luckiest girl alive to have such a wonderful man as my best friend and now husband for the last two years. He was truly made for me and he literally is my first and only true love.
I found these quotes recently and I saved them for this moment...
"Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads, which sew people together through the years." Simone Signoret
Here we were taking our first steps as husband and wife...
July 13, 2010
Well it happened again today. I was at work in the restroom. When I went to wash my hands there was another lady brushing her teeth (it was after lunch), I looked down and so her big bump. I instinctively and without thinking twice asked her how far along she was and she told me she was due the first week of August. Her belly looks so big and beautiful and for a tiny lady she carried with it with such grace. She asked me the same and I told her and then she said she know when the birth will happen as she is having a scheduled c-section at the same hospital I am delivering at but that she is also considering another one for insurance purposes. I asked her if she knew what she was having and she told me that she is having twin girls. How exciting!! She told me she is working till the end in order to make the most of her short maternity leave (we both have 45 calendar days which is just shit!). I wished her good luck and said congratulations on her blessing and she said the same. We work in the same zone but for different companies and as much as I have seen her around I have never spoken to her before today. I will surely look out for her for brief catch ups in the coming weeks.
As much as I LoVe our new house I am starting to dislike all the issue we are facing with it. If it's not one thing it's the next but our main issue so far has been with the water tank and pump. The geniuses that built these houses didn't think that putting a water pump underground in a garden that needs a lot of water would be an issue, so not only they built it like this they also didn't waterproof these manholes and pumps. As a result from one moment to the next we are left with no water as the water pumps get flooded with water. Since we moved there 6 months ago we have had to get the maintenance to pump water out on 4 occasions, two of which occurred within 2 days of each other. Now you tell me if this is normal? Last night it happened again. We were watching tv thinking the water was watering itself and when I went to check the water was off in the garden and in the house too. They came they "semi-fixed" and they are coming back today to fix things for the third time. I swear I hope they do fix this once and for all
I have also changed my job to travel agent! My parents are coming to stay with us for a month (they live on another continent from us so it's only logical for them to stay longer) from the week I go on maternity till the 23rd of October so I have had to organise their tickets for their trip. I cannot wait to see them and it'll be great for them to see me pregnant. I last saw them for Christmas and pictures don't really do this justice. I warned them that they might have to drive me to the hospital and be ready to speed if necessary.. that should be fun! I have also asked my mom on several occasions if she wanted to come in with us whilst I deliver and on all occasions her reply has been somewhat vague. The first time I asked her we were talking about their visit and whether they should come before or after Izzy's birth. I told her that if they came early she could come in with us and her reply was "we'll come after then!!" I should have gotten the picture but I asked her again and when I felt how uncomfortable she was I answered for her and said that maybe it would not be fair on dad who would have to stay out on his own. To that she agreed. I think it would be too much for her to see me in that much pain and that she might not be able to stand it. She is a known fainter so I think if she saw blood she would be out and then take D with her as he gets queasy too!!! When I told D all he said, in a joking way, was "I am glad you are so considerate of your mom's feelings.. what about mine??"
July 12, 2010
You must think I have been obsessing over turning 30 but the fact is that until a friend mentioned if I was ready for the last week of my twenties, I had no clue my birthday was so close. I have to admit that I am really looking forward to this big surprise with friends on Thursday night and then to our mastery long weekend away!! I cannot wait for it!!! All D told me to pack was a swimsuit that fits me because "we will be away from civilisation"! How cool does that sound??? I cannot wait to see where my lovely husband is taking me! I am also super excited about Thursday but worried after D told me off last weekend for being high maintenance but thinking I am low maintenance.. which is, according to Harry from When Harry Met Sally.....the worst kind of woman:
D told me this because everyone has been asking him what to get me for my birthday and how no one, including him, knows what to get me because I don't spell it out! When he asked me I told him to tell people to get me vouchers for books or stores anything is fine but no specifics because I don't want people to spend a fortune on a birthday present. I said it before, I have not celebrated my birthday with friends since I was 18 so I am a little out of training here! When it comes to D's present I told him I don't want anything because he is already taking us to this amazing weekend away so that's the present and not to get me anything from Tiffany either. Basically he should not get me a present.. now that's not high maintenance to me??!?
Anyway, I am off walking around the office trying to shake this cold off... wish the cold luck ladies because I am not taking any hostages today!!!
July 11, 2010
- the wood they use is grown in a sustainable plantation so as much as it'll be durable through the years, it came from a plantation that was created for this purpose;
- it meets all the safety standards you can think of;
- it is possible to lower the side track for easier access to the baby;
- it does not only convert into a junior bed but later when Izzy outgrows that too it can be converted into a little sofa;
- it comes with its own spring mattress so we can be sure of a perfect fit.
We ordered it and it should be delivered to us in 8 weeks from now which will be around the first week of September! We cannot wait to see it in Izzy's room! D saw a little chest for Izzy to keep some of her toys in and fell in love with it so we got it too! It's also white but we could add stickers or maybe a nice looking pillow for now.
We had a busy but exciting weekend! On Friday we had two back to back parenting classes, the first one was all about C-sections and the exercises to do after the operation and the actual procedure etc. The second class covered baby care, so we learnt how to hold the baby (Teddy bear in our case!) when breastfeeding her, how to bath and change her nappy. It was a lot of fun and very educative for us. We also learnt that poor little Isabella will have a lot of vaccinations to do after she is born... I don't dare think about it yet!!! The first ones are done after she is born.. how crazy is that?? Will need to do some more research on the subject!
We then went to get special paint and stencil brushes to do the stencil in Izzy's room. D had the brilliant idea of making a stencil that reads Isabella Anna to put in the only section of the wall that we left white. So I spent all of last week trying to work out how to make the stencil. I have never made one so I researched it online and watched YouTube videos of how to make them! LOL In the end, the stencil came out pretty well and we could not wait to get started on it. D suggested we get special paint and brushes for it so after we got all the material together, Friday night D went up on that painful ladder again (I swear the man is a saint! I spent 10 minutes putting the light curtains up on that ladder and my feet hurt like hell today! He did all of the walls twice on it and never complaint!! How don't know how he did it!!) and the result is just amazing!! I also washed the curtains and put them back up and the whole room looks so so pretty.. it remined us of a peaceful cloud! We are so pleased with the overall look of the room so far and cannot wait to see it once the cot and the rest of the furniture (we still need to buy) arrives! Here is a picture of how the stencil came out and how it looks now the colour is dry and the curtains are up:
July 7, 2010
I remember how scared I was of letting go and allow myself to think of how amazing this truly is. I remember the fear that something might happen and something might take it all away and by living in fear all I achieved was lack of enjoyment of the moment I was living. Well that is no longer me. I chose not to be afraid and scared of what might be because I just don't know what tomorrow will hold. All I know for sure is that right now my baby girl is kicking away at my bladder and moving around every so often to remind me that she is a miracle and she is alive. I chose not to worry about what future ultrasounds might show because right now there is really nothing to worry about. We went out and bought so many things that in 3 months time our baby girl will hopefully enjoy and use. I read baby care books because I believe that in approximately 95 days we will bring home our baby girl and I will be able to apply some of the things I have learned in the way we will bring her up
Thinking like that comes naturally because in the reality of the moment all is good and all is going as it should be. The part I chose to ignore and silence consists of the negative thoughts and the thoughts that come from having experience difficulty in getting to where we are now. What I do now is play off those feelings and thoughts to make my point even stronger. For example when the thought of how things could go wrong because of how hard it was to get here in the first place comes into my mind I think and cherish the fact that I am pregnant NOW despite all the tests and medical explanations as to why it might not happen. When I think that it might never happen again, I hug my belly and stroke it thinking how wonderful it is that I am experiencing this at all! I basically fight those feeling back with a baseball bat because they will not get in the way of me enjoying this amazing pregnancy I am living! It takes practice and I need to stick at it because it's easy to go back and allow those negative thoughts to sneak in but I am determined to try my best.
In a way I feel like I am retraining my brain. I remember when we first TTC we saw everything as a positive and as a new opportunity, we expected a positive result and were so oblivious of the journey we had just embarked on. Even during the first batch of tests when we found the first problems, we still managed to keep positive. It was later when everything looked bleak and IVF was mentioned that we started to think the millions of what ifs and we learnt pretty quickly to expect a negative result as the norm. Well now it's the time to change all that and go back to that first innocent state of mind because life is beautiful and the miracle that we both prayed so much for is growing within me... and that alone should be celebrated each day.
July 6, 2010
Last night's dream was the first of its kind as it was my first giving birth dream. I was in labour as I had contractions so I went to the hospital. Once I arrived (I was on my own) the nurse at the reception asked me how my first baby was doing and I looked at her not knowing what she meant. The other nurse next to her gave her a bad look and showed her something on my file. I asked them what they were talking about and the nice nurse said she was sorry for the other's nurse lack of sensitivity as she didn't know I gave birth to a still born baby in my previous pregnancy. The news shocked me and at the same time I seemed to have remember that it did happen. I started crying so much that I could not stand and I couldn't even feel any labour pain. They then took me to the L&D room where the doctor proceeded to break my water and give me a c-section and in no time Isabella was out and on my chest. She was such a big baby with beautiful green eyes like her daddy. I hugged her and kissed her and I never wanted to let her go. She was not crying but smiling at me with the cutest of smiles. They wrapped her up in paper towels as I had not bought her a blanket! (bad mommy!) After a while I was a allowed to leave and I left Izzy there as it was expected but later we came back with D and he cried so much when he saw her and he could not stop hugging her and kissing her all over.
That was traumatic and beautiful all at the same time and in way it makes me wonder how real labour will feel and be like for me. We live a good 30-45 minutes away from our hospital and D has been suggesting we get a cheap hotel room nearby for the last two weeks. I don't know if this is a good idea as I would rather be in our house with all the things I love than in a hotel room. He has a point in that if I go into labour when he is at work then there will be no one that can take me to the hospital and even friends that work nearby our house will take time in getting there and then take me to hospital. Then again I know that labour does not just come on one minute to the next and I know most women are in labour for a long time before they deliver so I am confident we will make it there in time.
The second dream I have had involved me being involved in saving Barack Obama's life. I know it sound completely loopy but here it goes. For some reason I had realised that this woman that lived next door to me was crazy and wanted to kidnap and kill the US president. So I intervened and fought with her and managed to keep her from doing any harm to the president, or so we thought until I saw that she had already the president in her basement. I was able to go see him and reassure him that help was on the way and that I would not let any harm come to him. I was even patting his head, it was hilarious! I went to my house and left him there knowing the secret service were going to go in any minute. The next morning I went by the house and was welcomed and hugged by Michelle Obama who kept on thanking me for saving her husband's life and the father of her girls! It was all so bizarre and it all felt real, I was a national hero!
July 4, 2010
The first purchase was a bathtub and as my brother recommended we bought a sponge to go inside it so that Izzy rests on it and it'll be easier to wash her. We also got her this cute and soft changing pad for nappy changing purpuses! My brother has a similar one and it's so easy to carry around the house depending on where his girls are.
The second big buy was the bottles steriliser which I had researched and found that steam sterilisers are more reliable and better all around than all others kind. So we went for the Philips Avent electric steam steriliser. It fits up to 6 bottles and breast bumps accessories and the cleaning cycle takes only 8 minutes. Its design is also sleek and not too bulky which is important in our not so big kitchen and we don't need a bigger one as I plan to breastfeed until I can.
D also bought a thermometer to measure Izzy when she has a possible fever. He actually wanted to buy the whole first aid section of the shop! I told him I had not researched ear thermometers and he gave me a look that said: "have you lost your mind??!?" so I kept quiet. We also got some night lights with Winnie the Pooh on it and some flowers ones too.
We then moved to the next shop where we saw they had baby swimsuits on sale so we got Izzy her first and also a cute little outfit that we could not resist!
D also got me to look at maternity clothes that were also on sale and I got 2 dresses (one to show off my new cleavage!) and 1 trouser for work and 1 pair of shorts! D also saw a playmat we have been buying for all our friends' kids and he said that after we bought it for everyone it was time we got it for ourselves! It's Izzy first game and as it's coming from daddy, it's even more special! It's super colourful and has music and lots of other fun things for her to discover.
We also looked at all the cots we are currently considering. We have 3 running favourites but cannot make our minds up on which to get. They are all white but they are all different models and they are all beautiful in their own right, they all convert into junior beds for when Isabella is big enough. Here they are, if you like one of them over the other let me know.
Number one on the list is the Celine from Mamas & Papas .We love the design of this one but we are not convinced about the paint they used to make it look antique white:
Number two is Humphrey's Corner cot bed. They don't sell the model that is all white here in the Emirates but they sell one with a wooden tip. It still looks super cute but if it was Winnie the Pooh we would have bought it but as we don't know Humphrey's Corner much it feels strange to buy Izzy a bed with this theme on it.
The last choice is a very simple design cot/junior bed by Mamas and Papas called the Coastline. We like it cause it's simple and white and it ticks all the boxes we look for in terms of safety but it does not have that extra factor that make you go "wow".
You might think that our shopping was over but we were ready for more the next day! We went to a new shopping center in Dubai that has a lot of brands that are not generally sold in the UAE. Our first buy of the day was the baby monitor. I have been researching it for a while now and found that the Philips Avent digital ones are reliable and clear. I wanted to go for one model as I had researched it but the only they had was this one and after much internal debate we went for the one they had (after i got home I read up on it and the one we got is the latest model so was super happy with our choice! ) We tested it and it covers all of our house. From the parents' control you can talk to the baby, activate the lullabies options or even turn on the night light. It also shows the temperature in the baby's room and the humidity level. Super happy with it!
Then D literally dragged me into a maternity shop. I thought it was all going to be clothes but they had other stuff that was on my list including the breast pump I wanted, the Medela Swing and the portable changing pad from Skip Hop. D said I need some shopping training because I definitely don't know how to shop! My mom used to tell me the same thing and I have to admit to it.. I am not a good shopper!
We then went into Borders and I got the Dr. Spock's book I have been looking forward to reading and What to Expect in the First Year because I love this series. I also got some for the stencil project I have in mind for Izzy's room. (I'll write more about that another time). We then went into Pottery Barns for kids and they have such lovely and bright things for babies! We bought some bath towels, one that will make Izzy look like a little lamb and the other, D's pick, we are having personalised with Isabella written on the hood. We also got lots of fitted sheets for the cot (that we don't own yet!) and 2 cot skirts, just because they looked so cute!! We then saw this cute painting of a fairy and we bought loved it so much that we got it for her room.
That was the last shop we went into that day. We felt really good about all our purchases so far and we are looking forward to the next set... cannot wait! D has been sick with a bad cold and cough since Saturday....the price you pay for too much shopping! LOL
July 1, 2010
Weight gained so far: 13kg (27 pounds) I know it's a lot of weight and most people gain that in their entire pregnancy and I still have 3 months to go but I refuse to care. Isabella is doing good and she is just the right size, I passed the GTT and as I was underweight to begin with this is normal. My midwife still calls me tiny which is weird considering I have never been this big! I love it!
Stretch marks: none so far and considering the amount of weight I am piling on you'd think I'd be full by now. I think it's all down to my miracle Spoiled Mama cream!! LOL
Biggest change: Isabella's movement. Since last Friday she started moving around so much and I can feel her and see her whenever she moves from one side of my belly to the next. When D saw it for the first time last Friday he thought it was so freaky. All he could say was WOW in a very shocked tone of voice! He is now used to it but still loves feeling her move.
Major purchase for Isabella: still just clothes and the pram (that is still not here.. D rolls his eye every time someone mentions it.. all he says is: "with all the prams you can find we had to go buy one from New Zealand!!" I know, I know!) but we intend to rectify all of that this weekend!!! We are going furniture shopping, I got the list ready and I am already checking on the mattress
Nursery progress: lots of it! D applied the second "glossy" layer of paint last week and last night we literally spilled blood, sweat and tears over the plastic sheet in her room to get the masking tape off the ceiling and everywhere in the room. Blood and tears because we both cut ourselves, mine were two minor ones but D's one was a deeper cut and by the time I brought him tissues he had blood drops over the plastic sheet on the floor. Sweat because I am always hot and D felt the heat going up and down the ladder! All we can hope is that Isabella likes her room as much as we do because I cannot imagine painting it again soon!
Sleeping:I have weird dreams but that's nothing new, I have always had very vivid dreams. The strange thing is how D is also having crazy dreams that he remembers, sometimes I wake up to him laughing in his sleep. D has always been someone who could never remember his dreams and now every morning he tells me about his latest dream. Last night he said he dreamt he came home to find a jaguar outside our house and a tiger inside of it. I need to do some research and see if this is something common in pregnancy!
Cravings: nothing yet and I still like what I used to like and hate what I used to hate. We'll see if this changes later on
How is D doing: Feeling super proud of his work on the nursery and looking forward to starting the shopping spree! He still loves to kiss my belly and he tells Izzy how much he loves her which is just so cute. He does not sing or read to her because he does not feel comfy doing that yet, he says he'll wait till she is born to start! I bet she'll welcome the change from my tone deaf voice singing Twinkle Twinkle and You Are My Sunshine! He still has some moments when he looks at me and smiles from ear to ear and says "can you believe you are growing a baby in there? OUR baby?!?!?" When he says that his eyes twinkle and they me feel like goo. I love him so much!
Best moments: seeing her face in 4D was amazing because we are now able to put a face to our baby girl and what a beautiful, cute and adorable face! Also the fact that she moves so often is so reassuring especially the scare of last week
What am I looking forward to: getting her room ready in terms of wardrobe and decals, just walking in there and feeling like it's her room.
What I miss: perhaps the only thing I miss is our old sex life. We used to have an active(in every sense of the word- LOL) sex life and now due to the size of my belly we are limited but it makes for some interesting stories for us to laugh about in years to come!
Here is a picture of me at 4 weeks pregnant (the day of my second beta result!):