Today is a better day. Thanks for all your messages, they made me feel less of a weirdo about feeling the way I do. Last night I spoke to D and he says that we should take it one step at the time in terms of the nursery. We can start by choosing a colour for the room. So this weekend we are going to get some colours to try them on and we'll see where we get from there.
Yesterday was our last appointment at our RE's clinic. Up until we have been so lucky to have been able to be looked after by her exclusively, however even if I trust her 100% I don't trust the hospital she delivers in and the shame is that she cannot deliver in the one I want to deliver in. We made the choice of delivering in the main maternity hospital in the city, the one with the more specialised staff and the one with a specialised NICU. I went to open a file there two weeks ago and then last week I went for my first visit with a midwife and I was so impressed. Everyone is super friendly, helpful and welcoming. So as our insurance does not cover me seeing two doctors I had to make a choice and given the fact that I will deliver in that hospital it makes sense for me to get my check ups there and get to know the staff that will deliver our baby girl.
So that bring us to yesterday's goodbye. Dr.S was so understanding about our decision, she completely respected the fact that we felt more comfortable in that hospital and that we wanted to become familiar with the staff there. She recommended a doctor for us to see whom she knows so that if she needs to provide him with any updates during the delivery they can be in touch. As it was our last visit with her and given the fact that we last saw her 3 weeks ago she did a quick u/s to check on Peanut and to make sure all is ok with her. She looked so much bigger, her head was right under my belly button and her legs were near my bladder. We saw her long spine and her lovely hands which are always around her face. We were able to only get a glimpse of her lovely face but she was shy so we have to wait for that. She also confirmed with this cute u/s picture that Peanut is indeed a girl! She measured her head and for the first time she is right on schedule for a 10/10/2010 delivery!
After the visit we sat down for a goodbye chat and I begged Dr.S not to retire because we want to come back for baby number 2 with her. Dr.S and her husband own the clinic she works in, her husband was also a RE but he has now retired. She said she is looking to hire more doctors to carry out the work and for her to have more of a supervisory role with more . We also asked the delicate question about our embryos. I won't go into it now as this will take a whole post on its own right but it's not great news. We thanked her so much and said that we will keep her updated on our progress and definitely be in touch. I can see myself going back if I am not satisfied with the level of care I receive at the hospital or if I am not happy with some results I get or just to pop by and say hello. I truly hope she will be working when we start thinking about baby number 2 because she truly made our miracle happen, she is our Miracle Doctor with a big heart and no matter what happens in the future she will always hold a special place in our hearts.