April 5, 2010

Freaking out!!!!

Last night I go home and during the evening I am sitting there with my legs up watching movies and as usual I put my hands on my belly to feel Peanut making those amazing little bubbles. Last night there was nothing. No bubbles no sudden movement nothing at all. I waited and waited and the more I waited the more freaked out I got. I texted D and told him what was going on and he said that Peanut is probably resting not to panic. I just don't get it. Why have the bubbles stop? What is going on in there? Is our baby ok? I woke up this morning at 4.20 for my usual morning pee and then I could not go back to sleep. I kept thinking about what could be happening for Peanut to stop moving about. All kind of bad thoughts racing through my mind. I then got hungry so had a snack and after that I was able to close my eyes and go back to sleep. I haven't had any cramps or spotting or anything of that kind but I am nonetheless freaked out that something could be wrong. D is back tomorrow, thank God for that. He is my sanity and without him I am one big wreck I don't think I will let him go away ever again. Then Wednesday we have the ultra sound so hopefully, please God let it all be fine, we will see that all is ok. In the meantime I rub my belly and hold it for a sign that all is ok. It's the first time since getting pregnant that I feel this worried... I thought the 2nd trimester was supposed to be smooth sailing.

1 comment:

  1. I'm so sorry that you're going through this scariness! Is there any way you could go in earlier for an ultrasound for your peace of mind? I'm sure everything's ok, but it would be nice to get some reassurance.

    And thank goodness D is back tomorrow - it will be nice to have him there for you! Just keep talking to that little Peanut, he's just hiding and resting, I'm sure!