24 weeks today

Today I am 24 weeks and cannot believe it. It is as if time is just running wild these days. If I close my eyes and look back, it seems like yesterday that we found out we were going have a baby and here we are 24 weeks pregnant. Life is really incredible.

This morning I started listening to the last set of meditation/visualisation recording for the second trimester which means next month I will be in the 3rd trimester. Part of this session's exercise is to consider all the aspects of pregnancy that you love and all the things you will miss once you are no longer pregnant. Here are all the things I love abut pregnancy:

1. I love being pregnant, I have never felt more complete and serene in my life. It's as if I have waited all my life for this moment and I am not exaggerating.


2. I love my big bump, the way it looks and how it feels so soft and delicate. I also love how my belly button has expanded and now looks like a snooze button!


3. I love how my boobs have grown so nice and big and how I now have an ample cleavage.


4. Coming from a recovering bulimic, I never thought I would say this but I love how my body just filled up and how it grows to accommodate my baby and the amazing job it's doing. In my meditation classes I always thank my body for not giving up on me and for doing such an amazing job through my pregnancy. Considering I hated my body first due to the bulimia and then to the infertility and never treated it with the love I should have, it has really showed me a lot of love. It's through pregnancy that I have learned to listen to my body more and treat it with respect and love not with punching gloves.


5. I love the kicks and movements I have been feeling so regularly now and which ALWAYS bring a smile to my face.


6. I love how D's face lits up every time he sees my belly and kisses it.


7. I love going to parenting class and learn all about the things I never thought I would experience. I look around the class and think about all the other parents and wonder what their story might be. I have learned not to assume anything because with every pregnancy comes its own story.


8. I love that the spare room is no longer an empty room. Even during the first months of pregnancy I always looked at it and dreamed of doing it up for Isabella but now that we are actually painting it makes it all so real. I love walking in there night and day and smelling the paint (it's VOC free so it's ok!) and seeing the colour taking shape. The fear of buying for her is not as strong as it used to be and once the paint dries we are so going to go shopping for her cot and dresser and all other things she might need.

Things I will miss about being pregnant:

1. All of the above of course.


2. I will miss that sense of security in knowing that my baby is in me and therefore safe. (I am going to have serious separation issues.. I know it!!!)


3. I will miss this experience because I know that it might be the only time I get to be pregnant. We know that once Isabella is born we won't have to use precautions and that sooner rather than later we will try IVF again to add a brother or a sister to our family. Will it work? Will it fail? Knowing I have a diminished ovarian reserve does not help. The last two (super powerful) IVFs got us 10 and 9 viable eggs respectively so knowing I will the odds are not that great. That's why I need to cherish every moment of this one pregnancy I am experiencing right now. I suppose knowing it might be the only one might be the contributing factor as to why I love being pregnant so much.


4. I will also miss skipping queues in public restrooms, at the bank and being offered seats etc LOL

Tomorrow we have our routine checkup and this time I want to ask questions so I am writing them all down. D won't come with us as the appointment is just a routine now and at a weird hour. I cannot wait to hear Isabella's heartbeat which is always music to my ears and I hope my weight is still withing the given guidelines for weight gain. I know most hospitals do glucose tests between 24-28 weeks but last time I spoke to my midwife she said that they don't do the glucose tolerance test unless you show signs that you are having issues. They did randomly check my glucose levels and it all looked good plus they do test my urine for sugar at every visit. I trust them to know what they are doing and not to run expensive tests for no good reason. Cannot wait till tomorrow!!