Frozen Embryo Transfer... yup already!

Ok so life as a mummy is BUSY! I have been through so much in the last 4 months that I don't know where to start. Here's a small summary:

1. Isabella is a marvel. She is growing so fast, sometimes I joke that if I blink I might miss something! She is in the 95th percentile for height (they told us she was going to be a tall one from her ultrasound and she really is!) She is smiling, laughing, giggling, talking and she amazes us every day with something new. She has made our lives feel complete and she truly is the love of our lives!
2. I have become a stay at home mum! I have lost my job the day I went back from maternity leave. It was kind of expected and in a way it turned out for the best as this means I get to spend time with Isabella when she mostly needs me. I was laid off so they are paying me a reasonably large amount of money so at least I don't feel like it's all on D's shoulders.
   
3. I have been fighting an infection since I gave birth and had been on 4 different antibiotics. I finally started drinking lots of cranberry juice and yogurt in the hope it will help fight it and last week I found out that it's gone! It took 4 months but it's finally gone!
4. I am still breastfeeding Isabella and loving it. I was in so much pain to begin with but after the initial struggles now it comes very easy and natural. I am pumping and saving lots of milk too just in case we need it at a later stage.
5. I have been told that unless we use our 4 snowbabies from our first IVF cycle, they will be destroyed at the end of June. So we are planning a natural FET cycle in May.We have also been told that I can wait max 1 year but that we need to do an IVF cycle soon otherwise we might never have the chance to add to our family (I have DOR).

So here we are 4 months after Isabella's birth already planning a FET and future IVF cycles... isn't the life of an infertile fun! When we tell most people this they think we are nuts, of course when we tell that unless we move now we might never give Isabella a brother or a sister then they understand.

My RE wants to do a natural FET, although I don't know how that would work considering I haven't had a period yet but I truly hope we can do it naturally as Isabella will only be 7 months and I had originally (in my 'perfect' world mindset) planned to wean her naturally. Of course now I know this might not be an option, it hurts and make me think if we are doing the right thing. We waited so long for Isabella and now I want to be able to give her the best possible start in life. I know that breastfeeding her for the first 6 months is already a huge plus but I wanted to let her decide when to start solids and continue nursing her until she was ready. D keeps telling me to look at the big picture and I know he is right. I shouldn't complain, I have been so lucky to have gotten pregnant, had a uncomplicated pregnancy, a healthy baby girl and that I have enough breast milk to have been able to nurse her this far.

I have been researching natural FET and other stories of women doing FET whilst nursing and there aren't many but my doc did not seem concern so for now I chose not to panic (yeah right!) She was honest with me and told me that she has never had a success with FET cycle so not to put too much hope in this cycle and to be honest I won't.... but you know how it is... It would be so wonderful it worked as it would mean not have to go through IVF and all the drugs and procedures again... we shall wait and see. We won't even know how many of the 4 embryos make it past the thawing stage so it's a long shot.

So that's where I am at these days.. life has surely changed a lot in the last 4 months and I wouldn't change one bit!!!